I've been very busy with school these past few weeks, and these next two will only be worse. Yet I just had to take a moment to acknowledge what a crazy moment in my life I am in right now, which can only be explained in a snapshot of my day.

My day consisted of waking up at 6 am to volunteer at hospice, taking an italian quiz (which I am taking in preparation to studying in Switzerland in the spring), having lunch with one of my closest friends, starting my fungal experiment, writing a paper on the possible implications of climate change on disease prevalence for medical geography, meeting a past Fulbright scholar at a workshop, restarting my half-marathon training with a 3.5 mile run, working on the 5th revision of my Rhodes personal statement, and rewriting my Fulbright grant proposal to work on a hospital acquired infection control in Malaysia. Oh, and now I'm rewriting my Ode and will be writing a new poem for my creative writing class.

What is this life I have created for myself?

I couldn't have even imagined any of this six months ago, let alone four years ago when I started college.

Was this simply a culmination of all the events and experiences that have led me to this point, or was there some monumental shifting of fate and my life trajectory in the last year that has somehow brought me here? I honestly don't know. I simply want to remember this moment always: when life is absolutely unpredictable and can take me in a myriad of directions.



One theory:

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life.”